God is always speaking to us with a still small voice. Sometimes when you need it the most and you are begging for His infinite wisdom its louder and more audible. If we will just sit still and listen we will hear it. The world labels it a "conscience" but really it's the Holy Spirit.
God reminded me this morning, that I am hearing Him even though Satan has placed many doubts in my head that I am not. When I had some moments of doubt, He made me recall the voice that told me not to Stint or Shunt Elijah. Dr. G wanted to stint at first but then decided he wanted us to wait until we got to Cincy. I was so worried about Elijah's bladder. I just thought it might be best to go ahead and let him do it. Dr.G said that he understood my concern and agreed that something could happen to Elijah between the time and said he would Shunt if I wanted him to.
I can't help but think of what would have happened if I had not obeyed and let him go ahead and shunt. Dr. G had no idea that the uterine wall was separated and it could have been deadly for both of us. This only showed up on the MRI in Ohio. God's hand of protection has always been on us and will continue to be for the rest of our lives as long as we abide in Him and make Him our refuge. Oh, how HE loves us! Just thought someone may need to hear that. I also wanted to leave you with this great song and video that is an awesome picture of just how much God really does love us. I hope you will watch it. Much Love-Kelli
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
Praying for our Ram
I guess today, I feel so much like Abraham did so long ago. How heart wrenching it had to have been to load up his fire wood and flint and walk 50-60 miles to Mount Moriah with such a heavy heart knowing what he was going to have to do. God had told him to sacrifice his own son Issac. Abraham proved that his love for God was even greater than the enormous love that he had for his only son whom he had prayed for for so long.
We arrived home late last night with Elijah in God's hands, right where he has always been. The doctors can do nothing for him. The separation in the lining of my uterus and the placenta previa has eliminated all options for them. The previa prevented them from doing the surgeries and the separation in the lining prevented them from shunting because of such a high risk of a pulmonary embolism for me. So they sent us home and told us to try and have as much of a normal pregnancy as possible until the time came for Elijah to be here. Any sign of bleeding or contractions would cause them to have to take the baby and do a complete hysterectomy. The doctors have given Elijah minutes to an hour to live after birth depending on when he is born. With nothing being able to be done they say he will have no lungs because there is no amniotic fluid from the blockage. They say he already has fatal kidney damage and his bladder is permanently nonfunctional.
I am reminded daily that we walk by faith and not by sight. I know that God loves me and is crying tears with me because this is not what he intended our lives to be like. I know this grieves His heart as much as it does mine. I will continue to focus my eyes on Jesus and not the circumstances. I know that this did not come from heaven because there is no sickness in heaven and God is a perfect God. I know this comes from a real enemy who is out to kill, steal and destroy my family and all those around us who love us. I refuse to let doubt, bitterness and anger enter my heart because I know that no matter what, Elijah will forever be my son.
I would like to have the attitude of Paul. He suffered so much for the cause of Christ. God never promised that this life would be perfect or easy. Paul said,
" To live is Christ and to die is gain." He didn't care if someone was about to cut off his head! He had the attitude of "Go ahead! I don't know which to choose!! Because if I live, I get to tell people about the love and saving grace of Jesus but if I die, I get to go where I want to be anyway!" Wow. My two friends Paula and Brooke reminded me yesterday that this is really Elijah's starting point. If he lives and God chooses to provide us with our "Ram"- a supernatural miracle, then what an incredible ministry he will have, already declaring the works of the Lord. But if he dies, he still LIVES! Because he will never have to live on an earth full of sickness, disease and all kinds of evil but will be able to live with his creator for eternity. And because my family has a personal friendship with Jesus, and accepted what Christ did for us on the cross, we will all be able to give Elijah a huge hug when we get there and hang with him on earth for 1000 years! What hope we have in Jesus.
I want you all to know that I am not giving up on this baby! Just as Abraham had the faith that God would provide a Ram and spare his son, I also have faith that God can provide a miracle for Elijah. He is still in the miracle business! I have seen them first hand all around me. And I will continue to pray that by the beatings Jesus took for us on His back, Elijah is healed in Jesus name. I would like to ask all of you to pray Psalm 91 for Elijah. Thank you all for your prayers and support and I thank God for all of you.
We arrived home late last night with Elijah in God's hands, right where he has always been. The doctors can do nothing for him. The separation in the lining of my uterus and the placenta previa has eliminated all options for them. The previa prevented them from doing the surgeries and the separation in the lining prevented them from shunting because of such a high risk of a pulmonary embolism for me. So they sent us home and told us to try and have as much of a normal pregnancy as possible until the time came for Elijah to be here. Any sign of bleeding or contractions would cause them to have to take the baby and do a complete hysterectomy. The doctors have given Elijah minutes to an hour to live after birth depending on when he is born. With nothing being able to be done they say he will have no lungs because there is no amniotic fluid from the blockage. They say he already has fatal kidney damage and his bladder is permanently nonfunctional.
I am reminded daily that we walk by faith and not by sight. I know that God loves me and is crying tears with me because this is not what he intended our lives to be like. I know this grieves His heart as much as it does mine. I will continue to focus my eyes on Jesus and not the circumstances. I know that this did not come from heaven because there is no sickness in heaven and God is a perfect God. I know this comes from a real enemy who is out to kill, steal and destroy my family and all those around us who love us. I refuse to let doubt, bitterness and anger enter my heart because I know that no matter what, Elijah will forever be my son.
I would like to have the attitude of Paul. He suffered so much for the cause of Christ. God never promised that this life would be perfect or easy. Paul said,
" To live is Christ and to die is gain." He didn't care if someone was about to cut off his head! He had the attitude of "Go ahead! I don't know which to choose!! Because if I live, I get to tell people about the love and saving grace of Jesus but if I die, I get to go where I want to be anyway!" Wow. My two friends Paula and Brooke reminded me yesterday that this is really Elijah's starting point. If he lives and God chooses to provide us with our "Ram"- a supernatural miracle, then what an incredible ministry he will have, already declaring the works of the Lord. But if he dies, he still LIVES! Because he will never have to live on an earth full of sickness, disease and all kinds of evil but will be able to live with his creator for eternity. And because my family has a personal friendship with Jesus, and accepted what Christ did for us on the cross, we will all be able to give Elijah a huge hug when we get there and hang with him on earth for 1000 years! What hope we have in Jesus.
I want you all to know that I am not giving up on this baby! Just as Abraham had the faith that God would provide a Ram and spare his son, I also have faith that God can provide a miracle for Elijah. He is still in the miracle business! I have seen them first hand all around me. And I will continue to pray that by the beatings Jesus took for us on His back, Elijah is healed in Jesus name. I would like to ask all of you to pray Psalm 91 for Elijah. Thank you all for your prayers and support and I thank God for all of you.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Update from Ohio
This is Kristi, Kelli's sister. I wanted to give everyone an update about what went on today!
Kelli and Les are now out of their meeting with the doctors.
They found out that baby Elijah now has a separated uterine wall, which was most likely due to the bladder tap done here. This will make it difficult for them to insert a shunt into his bladder if it does not heal quickly.
They have also found that Kelli now has what is called Complete Placenta Previa:If you have placenta previa, it means that your placenta is lying unusually low in your uterus, next to or covering your cervix.
Because of this, the option for surgery is off the table, because it would be too dangerous for Kelli.
They have also found an extra fissure on baby Elijah's heart, but it doesn't seem to be an immediate concern for the doctors.
They could not locate Elijah's colon today either because of his enlarged bladder.
Kelli, Les and Baby Elijah have to stay in Cincinnati for another day of testing. She has to go through another MRI (which was the hardest test on Kelli), and perform another bladder tap and ultrasound. After that, they will have another meeting with the doctors to discuss their options.
Kelli asks that we continue to pray for complete healing for baby Elijah! We know that God was not surprised by the news that they received today, and that he is in full control! We wish that we could see the future, but we must trust that the Lord has a plan for this baby!!
Kelli also asks that we pray that her Placenta Previa is healed and that Elijah's separated unterine wall is healed so that he can receive these shunts!
Thank you so much for your prayers! I know that Kelli, Les, and Elijah can feel the Love of God on them at all times!
I will continue to keep you updated as I hear more.
Kelli and Les are now out of their meeting with the doctors.
They found out that baby Elijah now has a separated uterine wall, which was most likely due to the bladder tap done here. This will make it difficult for them to insert a shunt into his bladder if it does not heal quickly.
They have also found that Kelli now has what is called Complete Placenta Previa:If you have placenta previa, it means that your placenta is lying unusually low in your uterus, next to or covering your cervix.
Because of this, the option for surgery is off the table, because it would be too dangerous for Kelli.
They have also found an extra fissure on baby Elijah's heart, but it doesn't seem to be an immediate concern for the doctors.
They could not locate Elijah's colon today either because of his enlarged bladder.
Kelli, Les and Baby Elijah have to stay in Cincinnati for another day of testing. She has to go through another MRI (which was the hardest test on Kelli), and perform another bladder tap and ultrasound. After that, they will have another meeting with the doctors to discuss their options.
Kelli asks that we continue to pray for complete healing for baby Elijah! We know that God was not surprised by the news that they received today, and that he is in full control! We wish that we could see the future, but we must trust that the Lord has a plan for this baby!!
Kelli also asks that we pray that her Placenta Previa is healed and that Elijah's separated unterine wall is healed so that he can receive these shunts!
Thank you so much for your prayers! I know that Kelli, Les, and Elijah can feel the Love of God on them at all times!
I will continue to keep you updated as I hear more.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
We are going to make it
Two of my sweet friends sent this to me at the same time this morning. Thought I would share it with you. It blessed me and reminded me that we are going to make it! I would love for you to watch it!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
The Stage is Set
Isaiah 43:1-3
Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
I have called you by name and you are mine.
When you go through deep waters,
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
you will not drown.
when you walk through the fire of oppression,
you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.
For I am the Lord, your God,
the Holy One of Israel.
Well, God has definitely set the stage for something supernatural. We just got our kidney results back and they were not good at all. The test conclude that Elijah has significant kidney damage and the odds are extremely high for him to go into renal failure in utero or at birth. However, after consultation between our high risk doctor and the doctors in Cincinnati they called us this afternoon and still want to see us up there for more tests. We will be having an MRI, another bladder tap and ultrasound and they will come to their own conclusions,give us options and their opinion on what we should do next.
Please continue to believe with us for God to heal Elijah and make him Whole in Jesus' name. We believe that Christ paid for his sickness and disease by the stripes he bore on His back and that we do not have to receive it. Until God shows us otherwise, we are still believing and still seeking and still asking. Please pray that the Doctors have wisdom and discernment as to how to handle our case. Please pray for my children that will be here, at our house, with family, that they will be comforted and protected during this trial. And Lastly please pray that ultimately, above all else God will be glorified.
We will let you know what news we receive there as soon as it is available to us.
Love to you all.
Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
I have called you by name and you are mine.
When you go through deep waters,
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
you will not drown.
when you walk through the fire of oppression,
you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.
For I am the Lord, your God,
the Holy One of Israel.
Well, God has definitely set the stage for something supernatural. We just got our kidney results back and they were not good at all. The test conclude that Elijah has significant kidney damage and the odds are extremely high for him to go into renal failure in utero or at birth. However, after consultation between our high risk doctor and the doctors in Cincinnati they called us this afternoon and still want to see us up there for more tests. We will be having an MRI, another bladder tap and ultrasound and they will come to their own conclusions,give us options and their opinion on what we should do next.
Please continue to believe with us for God to heal Elijah and make him Whole in Jesus' name. We believe that Christ paid for his sickness and disease by the stripes he bore on His back and that we do not have to receive it. Until God shows us otherwise, we are still believing and still seeking and still asking. Please pray that the Doctors have wisdom and discernment as to how to handle our case. Please pray for my children that will be here, at our house, with family, that they will be comforted and protected during this trial. And Lastly please pray that ultimately, above all else God will be glorified.
We will let you know what news we receive there as soon as it is available to us.
Love to you all.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Still no news!
We are waiting patiently with expectation! My Doctor cannot seem to get the doctors in Cincinnati to call him back to schedule an appointment with them. They seem to be waiting on the results from the Kidney test to even talk to us. I will admit, in the natural, and in my flesh, I am very frustrated knowing that every minute with no bladder relief cannot be good for Elijah, but still I know that faith is believing the things that are unseen rather than the things that are seen. God is working out His perfect will for this precious little boy! Please thank God and praise Him in advance for a speedy and perfect test result to come back!
I have been reminded all day of Jeremiah 29:11 from many people and from the Lord himself that " He has a plan and a purpose for Elijah, Plans to prosper him and not to harm him, plans to give him a hope and a future."
Will let you know as soon as we hear something!
I have been reminded all day of Jeremiah 29:11 from many people and from the Lord himself that " He has a plan and a purpose for Elijah, Plans to prosper him and not to harm him, plans to give him a hope and a future."
Will let you know as soon as we hear something!
Saturday, October 10, 2009
A New Week
I went to the Riverchase Campus at Church of the Highlands this morning and Pastor Blake's worship set put me right where I needed to be with the Spirit of God. God will be glorified in all of this and I choose to praise Him no matter what. I was reminded again, that Elijah belongs to Him and that He has chosen us to be Elijah's parents for a very special reason. To God alone be the Glory.
I will let you all know as soon as we hear something else from the Doctors! Thank you all for your prayers. Here is another song that has blessed me this weekend! It's great. Love you all.
I will let you all know as soon as we hear something else from the Doctors! Thank you all for your prayers. Here is another song that has blessed me this weekend! It's great. Love you all.
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